Life and Work for DELIGHT - 5

  Dear Son,
       When your mind has turned to fresh nature, you will find happiness,
       freshness and plenty of sources of wealth in yourself; that is love, warmth,
       happiness and calmness; you will touch a deep beauty of life. You will
       recognize and get in touch with all experiences that come in your life.
       You will open your mind to happiness in living. These qualities in you
       must arise from fresh and clear mind. However, there are questions:
       "How much can you touch the beautiful nature of life and how can you
       be related to it; how delicate can you be in your thinking ?" Though you
       often touch inner happiness, arising from peace which is light and fresh,
       you are likely to hide yourself from it and turn to do things in confusion,
       commotions, heaviness and darkness, which causes unhappiness. Many
       times you do not allow yourself to touch real happiness. The reason is
       because you go astray and have wrong ideas. Therefore, you make
       mistakes and try to be happy in the wrong ways. Thus, you are fully
       unable to be happy with your success. This may be because you still
       doubt and worry about your negative feeling. This takes you away from
       the reality of life and makes you go astray and try to find happiness from
       outside. It will make you confused and interested in the events around
       you dotedly by not believing or believing that those things make you happy.
       Unknowingly you spend your energy on finding outside things. It makes
       you miss the stream of fine, deep and clear feeling in your mind. If you
       are not clear in the stream of thoughts, you will not be able to meet real
       knowledge inside you. You will acknowledge these experiences dimly and
       crudely. At last what you get is an experience of the lowest quality.
      
       Though you have success in many deeds you have performed,
       the fact that you segregate yourself from clear nature of the mind, you
       will lose the foundation of your life. Thus, you will feel disturbed, unstable;
       you begin to feel that your life is empty and has no value. When you are
       not overwhelmed with the knowledge of self, you will often seek other
       people or other things to make yourself happy. The reason is that you
       don"t know what is lacking in you. Thus, you are not clear in mind what
       you really want and therefore you are always disappointed and painful.
       The more you are unhappy, the more gloomy you are and you will fall in
       the pit of unhappiness. You don"t have any reason for being unhappy and
       dismay. Thus, you feel unhappy and dissatisfied and more shaky. The
       relationship and different touches by sight, hearing, smell, touches of the
       body and recognized emotion will become tasteless. It causes you to want
       more and more without any ending. You will perform your deeds unhappily
       with a dull mind. You will be confined in anger and doubt. You will lack
       delicate common sense and will be attracted and fall in the circle of worry
       and wrapped up with unhappiness. But I am sure that you will never find it.
       Such search will happen repeatedly until it becomes a habit, which you believe
       to be a guideline for living your life.